LYRICS
NIPPED IN THE BUD
(written 2005-2006/recorded 2006)
(additional lyrics by Arthur Schopenhauer/1788-1860, Parerga and Paraliponema II, § 365)
as the wardress told me that my body looks so fat today
i went into the bathroom, tried to
puke my guts out, show myself that
stomach's been all empty though
as i tried to wipe away the tears of self-hate, threatening to
smudge my make-up, everybody
backstage jostled me to go out,
catwalk time, bikini show
all those sweating workmen from the coal mine stared at me as i went
show my childish body with
incarnadine this touch of nothing,
horniness is in their eyes
all my friends and family once told me that i look so good
it made me want that everyone would find me oh so super-cute
watch me dancing in the mire
i'm an object of desire
tell me, can this be, forsooth,
all the meaning of my youth
nature conferred beauty on me, so i always used to be an
everybody's sweetheart and i
recognized that beauty bestows
social power, big surprise
so it seemed quite manifest to exploit this dependency
of elder men and younger boys who
crane their necks at me and do
whatever i want them to do
all those sweating workmen from the coal mine stared at me as i cursed
all these model contests, seems
the tables turned, ironically
i now do what they want me to
a model search seemed right to open up the big, wide world for me
bulimia and nicotine now both support my apathy
watch me dancing in the mire
i'm an object of desire
tell me, can this be, forsooth,
all the meaning of my youth
“With young girls, Nature seems to have had in view what, in the language of the drama, is called a striking effect; as for a few years she dowers them with a wealth of beauty and is lavish in her gift of charm, at the expense of all the rest of their life; so that during those years they may capture the fantasy of some man to such a degree that he is hurried away into undertaking the honourable care of them, in some form or other, as long as they live -- a step which would not seem sufficiently justified if he only considered the matter reasonably. Accordingly, Nature has equipped woman, as all of its other creatures, with the weapons and implements requisite for the safe-guarding of her existence, and for just as long as it is necessary for her to have them. Here, as elsewhere, Nature proceeds with its usual economy; for just as the female ant, after fecundation, loses her wings, which are then superfluous, nay, actually a danger to the business of breeding; so, after giving birth to one or two children, a woman generally loses her beauty; probably, indeed, for the same reasons.
And so we find that young girls, in their hearts, look upon domestic or commercial matters as of secondary importance, if not actually as a mere jest. The only business that really claims their earnest attention is love, making conquests, and everything connected with this -- dressing, dancing, and so on.“
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